I am a 20-year-old undergraduate. we both met on the first day of our college, and I started getting feelings for her. unfortunately in no time, I got to know that she is in love with her schoolmate who studies in different college which is far away from my place, by the time I confessed my feelings, they got to know beforehand, followed by her not talking to me for a month.. but after that month, I started to face the real problem. She came back to me crying very badly saying that she doesn't want to lose me as her best friend ever and to me, on the other hand, she is still that princess who met me. Then, I made a very stupid thing which I still regret. I said its okay, lied to her that I don't have feelings anymore towards her and accepted to be best friend with her from then, every once in a week, I spend a whole day and night pondering why I ended up in a shit hole like this, fantasizing a girl who's never gonna become my soul mate, self-motivating (which I'm not finding as a permanent solution), etc etc. today, I'm writing this because I'm at peak stage, seeing there's no way out. I stopped talking to her for a couple of days, and now she is crying bitterly in her room, having literally all the sophomores around, consoling her and consequently, all girls are texting me that why am I acting that rude towards her, thinking I am such a cold-hearted man.. which I am not!!.. to my peers on this platform, if there's anyone having similar problem that I am going through now, then cheers bruh!