Hello experts, So i have had terrible anxiety issues. 2 years back it was at peak, reason being around with the toxic (best) friend.
We are no longer friends & i have cut all my ties with her.
Initially I was grieving but it took me lot of me time ruminating and talking to good people around me, to realize it all happened for good. And I’m proud to say that I have healed and do not hold any grudges against my friend or towards me. ( Thought a lot to start medications/ therapy for anxiety but time helped me)
For some better insights of myself I’m an empathetic person and tend to help those who reach out to me or show they need help, also I’m an emotional person and i can go out of my way to help the people close to me.
Recently I started talking to a person from an opposite gender on social media who is also an acquaintance and we have been talking a lot. Like without even getting bored, we have talked continuous for days of course with few breaks and there’s a lot common between the two of us. They way we see the world, the emotions that we feel in general about everything around us, the thoughts everything has been so much alike. And honestly in today’s time it’s good to see that there is someone out there who thinks so much like me.
So this person recently opened up to me about his mental health during a conversation and honestly i was shocked. Since we’ve not met each other even though we’ve gotten close by talking daily. It took me some time to process & as the conversation went ahead i was enlighten with a lot of things like how that person has been dealing with mental issues since a very long time and doesn’t have anyone to share those talks with which is why probably it sometime gets worse.
On my part I have been having daily conversations just like before, but now also checking up often, so that this person doesn’t feel lonely and know there is someone who can listen.
But for me I see that i have started experiencing some extreme over thinking and anxiety thinking about this person as we have got really close.
Honestly I think I’m a clingy person and tend to get too attached to anyone who gets nice to me and that is the reason this person is always on my mind.
Thankfully I haven’t fallen for this person and i keep fearing bc if the feelings are not reciprocated it will break me.
How do i stop myself from thinking about it and being less clingy as i have observed i tend to have terrible anxiety and emotions the way i had 2 years back.
By the way i have anyway not been doing great mentally since last 3 months with all the negative news going around, with covid, people losing their lives to suicide and diseases. All this even before getting clicked with this person. But Talking to this person helps me and makes me feel better and makes me realize how far i have come.
Looking for Some constructive suggestions from you kind people.
An over thinker