Hi, guys so I'm new to this platform and I have heard a lot about yourdost.
So sharing my story here and hoping to get help from this beautiful community.
I am a female in my early twenties. I have a guy best friend whom I know since past 4 years, and over the last 1- 1/2 year we have become very close in terms of understanding each other's emotion and as well as supporting each other. I had met him through a common friend, whom he was dating since these 3 1/2 year and now they have broken up as they always went through a rough patch in their relationship.
I and he also had a few ups and downs in our friendship as I was going through anxiety and depression, and I was, maybe possessive over him.
He knows I had/have feelings for him and he didn't let our friendship ruin when I had confessed him. like I said we have had our ups and downs but here we are again rebuilding our friendship very strong as it was before.
After the breakup, he was completely shattered. He came to me for help but that time we weren't on talking terms and I literally blasted over him about whatever happened with him in his relation as he too was at fault.
But sooner I realized it wasn't the right time to do so. And I regretted. I decided to help him as he needed mental support than showing him how wrong and blind he was.
so it's actually just a few weeks to all these dramas, but we are in constant touch through meeting once in a week and texting each other every day and almost updating what we are up to.
I still feel there is some kind of rapport or connection I have with him and that is why it has bought me back to him after those few hard times that I had with him which actually made me a stronger person in return.
The thing is I feel I love him immensely but it may not be the truth maybe it's just the affection I have for him or the emotional support we have been giving each other throughout the process.
I want to take some more time to understand my feelings, but as far as I know is he is someone with whom I can share everything without any fear of being judged so is with him I feel and hence he pours his heart out.
His mom keeps telling me to take care of him after his breakup as he was lost in his life while he was in the relationship.
If this is not what love is called then what is it??
Right now I'm only focusing for him to be on track with his life, career, mental peace and to help him gather all bits to pieces. So that he knows what is his life priority like his mom says he is a kid and needs to be taught how things are done.
It is not the right time to talk to him about my feelings as he is broken and somehwere still in love with his ex.
I feel I also need more time to understand my feelings as well before I speak to him and take this forward.
As once he had already told me that things aren't possible between us as he is already in love with someone else. I don't know maybe we both need time and maybe I should wait till he feels the same for me.