I am doing a government job for past few months , away from my hometown. Also I am differently able.
Well the thing is I don't mix up with people. I don't do what a young guy do. You know talking about girls and other non veg stuff. The fact is I don't speak up much. I like to be alone, but to be in the group. You know to be included with a choice to be left alone.
Also things which bothers me is that I get swayed by people's opinion, since I have joined the job. I was totally undecided on which location I should be and also I agree with what other people say. So everyone was saying gopal sir was not good enough and I said that to rishi, a new joinee with me. But things got worse, rishi told hod that I have problem with my boss. And things got out of proportion. Then also gopal sir has given me lower seat than on which I am selected . So that got another set of problem. Other people also said you are overselling your disability. So it's been four-five months but seat allotment issue was getting worse because they have applied for one more staff . Then about work load , things were asked, and some other guy suggested you should come back and let things remain as they were, so that things got settled.
Then I have said to hod, that I am fine by disability measure and that may be you can give me some higher level job .(Also I had asked whether someone(kalia) is saying things against me ? Then hod understood it as I was asking about gopal sir. Hod told that gopal sir is good , he said you are doing excellent work. To which I have replied I have anxiety, & I am going to counselor) So hod asked from gopal sir to give me more work within my department but gopal refused that they have work and then hod wanted me to bring me over to another building where I can't climb stairs.
So I lied to my colleague kalia, that hod & others were asking for work load, which BTW they asked but it isn't related to this. So I had said to hod, I have no work pending.
And hence kalia told hod that I am doing good work , burdened all day, so maybe you should avoid giving me more work, but spread it informally that hod is bothering and asks things from me .
Hence now I am messed up.
Now hod must have known what I have said negatively or unconnected things and that I am mad.
Is there a solution out of this ?