Thanks for writing on this platform!
As I was reading your life experiences, it seems like you had to go through some experiences during the graduation that was distressing for you. Furthermore, it seems like you harbor negative feelings towards people who ragged you and them doing well in their respective lives discourage you about your current life situations.
I understand that what they did was unfair but you cannot change the past. And as long as you keep thinking about the unfair experiences you had, you may constantly be distressed comparing yourself with people who tagged you. These incidents have taken place years ago when all of you were younger. And although the way they behaved with you has no excuses, you are being unfair to yourself by being constantly pulled into the past, which you cannot change. But you have your present and future in your hands, and you can either choose to live your life through the lens of the past or build your life based on your aspirations, desires, and interests.
There is a quote from C.S. Lewis, "You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending." I suggest you think over it and see if you can relate to it at any degree.
With respect to your concerns about your parents not understanding you, I can say that they may have a different world view and perception that does not align with yours. It can be because of their own belief system and attitude that make them think you will have a better future if you study in IIT. These differences of opinion do not mean that your parents do not love you. Instead, it could be their concern towards your future and their way of loving you. These differences can be resolved if you can discuss with them with an open mind and not look through the lens of the past constantly.
Further to all the above concerns, you may get a better perspective if you ask yourself the following questions:
"How do worrying about other people's academic performance make a tangible difference in my life?"
"Would I still be feeling distressed about my academic situation if I do not compare with these people's performance?"
"Will I feel better and do better in my academics if I get some kind of revenge from the people who bullied me?"
"What are the things about my current college that I am not satisfied with? Are there any modifications I can make to be satisfied with my current academics?"
"Is there anything I can do right now, that can change my academic direction?"
If you can answer the above questions, you can gain clarity about the things that are in your control and are relevant to your life. It can also emphasize the importance you are giving to your past and the role it is playing on your current life.
After you introspect on the above exercise, you can connect with us to discuss the issues that still seem to bother you. We are hearing to hear you out.
Nandana Priya Kamasani