You asked, what do I do?
Now, what would you like to do?
It is not an easy to find answers right now as you are going through so much pain. You sound quite perturbed and shaken up, it must be hurtful, very hurtful. There seems to be so much going on in mind, heart and soul which is making you feel lost, isn't it?
Wondering if you have been able to speak with your bf to get few answers about, what happened? I am sure your mind would be full of so many WHY's? More so because you had given this person and your relationship a second chance, which reflects on the value of forgiveness and trusting again, important to you. Unfortunately, these values were not valued in this relationship.
According to me, TRUST is a very important pillar of any healthy relationship. And here, that was broken. What does it leave you with and what meaning you derive from all this? Something for you to reflect upon and how would you like to take it forward.
Manasvi, how long has it been since you heard about this news? How are you taking care of yourself with so much pain and suffering? Is there someone, family or friend you can talk to? It may be difficult to think clearly with clouded mind. Give yourself time, find ways to release this negative energy from body, as I said talking about your feelings and experiences is very helpful. Then ask yourself,
What would I suggest to a friend of mine going through a similar situation?
Let's see what suggestions you come up with, based on that choose or decide.
Remember, EVERY PAIN GIVES A LESSON and EVERY LESSON CHANGES A PERSON
What would you choose, pain or person?
Hope this helps. Please get in touch with some professional if you find it difficult to manage yourself.