Hello there! I have had an arranged marriage in 2018 . I dint completely like him then but got to marry him because of my family's emotional pressure. I know I should have fought then but it happened. And now I regret it. I neither liked him physically nor comfortable with him mentally. In the beginning , I was trying to make it work, thinking that everything will fall into place. I was blessed with a baby girl,whom I love the most. But ever since our relationship started, my mental needs were never satisfied. I don't blame him for that but it's just that we don't fit in properly with each other. He says he loves me but I'm not able to love him. And after I got pregnant and gave birth to my baby girl, my whole world turned toy her and I felt really happy . She is a blessing in my life. But I'm no longer interested to have a physical relationship with my husband since then. It's like my mind is exhausted with trying. Lust don't last long they say. And there is being a lot of pressure from my husband to have sex as it's already been an year since we din't have it. But I'm just not able to do it at any cost. The very thought makes me scary. I get a feeling of being raped when I think about it. I do get some suicidal thoughts sometimes. I don't know what to do now? !