You have a humble heart and loving personality to think of not getting her hurt or in any trouble.
However, your love for her is more like a blossom flower that you don't want to pluck and take back home no matter what, sounds like you want her to be happy if its with you or with you that is really nice of you for not being possessive about it but being more caring.
Nevertheless, confusion is a part of being in a relation sometimes, love is a really strong emotion and so is your ego and attitude toward it, what matters most is how you are going to channelize it.
Will be by walking toward the betterment of your life and her's by moving on with a new chapter in life and letting the relationship go with a good end note to it. Or facing consequences for giving a another try which you are not sure to do because she is not with you to do it.
life is in your hand and so is your own destiny dear, which ever step you choose today will lead you to a different path.
Imagine you are holding this glass of water for 5 minutes, your hand will not hurt that much, but if you will keep on holding this glass of water for 5 day it will pain and if you will keep on holding it for 5 years, your hand will paralyze and then you will stuck, which you do not wish to do. You want to put this glass down no matter how lovely it is to you and no matter how beautiful it looks.
So fill your cup of mind with ease to this relation, it was a lovely relation but some relation are not meant to be their by your side physically, however they can always flourish in your heart when you accept it to let it be and let it go.
some times letting go is easy then letting it go,,,,,all you need to do is ,,,,BELIEVE IN IT
Read about cell memory and work on it for 5 minutes in the morning every day, it will help...
try this link following to help you accept it with calm and relaxing feeling and allowing your mind to accept your relation status and accept it ... try to take deep breath and also try it by laying down straight and just listen to it ,,it will make you will really relaxed and allow you to accept and understand the feeling of letting go...
Thankyou and take good self care ,,,and always remember this ,,everything is there for a reason