I was in love with my girlfriend from last 3.5 years. But had many fights between us for one or the other reason. Later we never used to be far away for not more than 2 days. So much we used to love.
Some day i got to know that she is in relationship with other guy. Asked her about the same but she never accepted and was showing more love on me to just forget those issues.
I was in a divine love with her, did not wanted to cheat her in any manner.
When ever she used to come with me, she used to be clean and clear like no messages and calls of others, this is how she used to convince me and build a trust on her.
One fine day, she wanted to go out with other guy, so she planned not to pick my call at any cost, and pass me a message through her friend that she is not well and is hospitalised.
Even i was in a same dilemma and believed that it may be true.
Later her friend told me the truth that she dint had any accident, since she told me to pass the message i did like that she said.
Also even she told me that my girlfriend is in touch with other guys, many.
And she has gone into some illegal activities for making some money.since at home her parents were restrict to pay more than 2k per month for fuel and other things in college.
Every month at-least she used buy 10 to 15 cloths. But never used to wear those cloths when she meets me. If I ask her she tells aiyyo I forgot, tomorrow when we meet i shall wear karke she uaed to promise, that day never came.
Even i left her asking, she always used to meet me with repeated cloths only.
When I thought about this issue, i guessed that, if she wears the same cloths with other guy around, she was afraid that I might catch her red handed. Hence she planned to do such idea wearing new cloths and going out with others, so i ll not recognise even if she is next to me, since am not familiar with those new dresses. This was her idea.
I dont know what less i did to her in 3.5 years, but loved her to the core of my heart.
All these issues made me to take up decison for break up. It was difficult but i did.
Now am going down with her memories and time spent. Its not letting me to study for UPSC exams.
Because of this am unable to concentrate on my preparation for IAS, i lost one attempt because of these fights. Its my ultimate goal of my life.
Please suggest me how do i come out of all these stress n depression