Background: I have bipolar disorder since many years. Had multiple manic episodes due to on and off medication practice. I recently gone through treatment and i am stable now.
Pre-issue: After the latest manic episode which was severe almost destroyed my family. Now i am left only with my mom, wife and son. Rest of the faimily members, relatives are all history meaning some dont even want to talk to me. Some rarely talk to me maybe if they want some job done.
Positives: My son who is 4 years old takes little pressure of me. Cant expect emotional support from him. My mom is a bit supportive. Have job and decent salary. Bought home. Office people are supportive. And few good friends.
Issue: I am trying my best to help the family. But often i am misunderstood. There seems to be lack of understanding that i am working and trying in spite of illness. Rather expectations are more. Whenever i try to talk or they try to talk. Its always one sided. They leave me feeling i am not able to satisfy their needs. They keep looking at me like i made fault. I cannot accept it and they wont accept that i did not make fault. What helps in these situations? I have no one who supports me. Its like i am a slave to them. There is no life for me. Except that i have to beg for forgiveness and mercy which i cannot. I will never budge to their request unless they understand my point of view. I am going to stop trying to understand them and make effort in improving family relationships and say they win and they are always right. If they try to humiliate me, i will say bravo you have made it. Will that help?