Dear friend welcome to your dost . Yours is a typical scenario of what is happening in many families . Our parents can sometimes tend to impose discipline in all aspects of our life and emotions without realizing. They often become so protective and overconfident for the kids that they might fail to know the kids talents, interests, passions, aspirations, potential ,and uniqueness ,and tend to smother them. They fail to realize the pains of emotional deprivation,inhibition,abuse and neglect that is caused.
Your anger is a tip of the iceberg ,below that is frustration,indignation,resentment,unfairness,emotional abuse,suppression of freedom and denial of spontaneity and freedom of expression,hate etc . These are justified as you have been run on his program and control. But please remember that everything in this life is a test , like in school the teacher teaches a lesson and gives a test ,but life gives you a test and then teaches you the lessons . Dont bother about what you cant rewind,change or control, but focus only of the lessons all these have taught ,and be grateful for them. You have certainly become more wise,patient,strong,gained insights ,and experienced such things that offer you so much understanding . The choice is simple either wallow in hate ,anger and resentment,or let go ,and ,reboot refresh and relaunch yourself , focus on the future,on solutions ,dont dwell and harp on the past ,happiness is a state of mind ,gratitude is an attitude. Think about the good things your father has given you ,the sacrifices he has made ,they were all good intentions and duties of a father . Like the holy scriptures say be prayerful thankful and grateful in all things because this is the will of God for you. Forgive not because it is deserved but because you need peace of mind to forget ,and move on. let go the memories of what bought you where you are now,be mindful of the present , this is your reality,bounce back ,move on , learn to be happy ,enjoy life the way it is now and use your resources to change ,pursue the best choices ,and find happiness within yourself with gratitude .If you look back you will see that all that happened was nothing but the road that brought you here ,its already travelled,now look ahead with expectations and resolve ,life is all within you and within your control now .