Thank you for writing here to share what you are going through.
From what you share, I understand that you have had your reasons to step out of the relationship. And hope you have made peace with those reasons?
And that being on one side, the other part of your experience - even after some time passing, you seem to be unable to move on from the memories and attachment of that relationship, yes? Attachments that we form with persons can be very strong, and there can be a lot of reasons for it. It might be possible that you have felt very connected to him and this is making it hard to move past the relationship after the separation. And this is very understandable. Maybe it is that you need more time to move on... more than 6 months? Maybe it is not that you are "unable to move on", but more so that you are "unable to move on as yet"............. What do you think about this?
You shared further, about a deep desire and longing that he comes back. This could be again coming from your difficulty in moving on from the attachment you have with him, and it could also be coming from any doubts you have, maybe, about finding love or companionship again? The reason I say this is, often that becomes one of the main reasons for difficulty in moving on from a relationship - because we are unsure if we could find something like that again. And in such a case, it might help to give yourself time to open yourself up to possibilities again. Yes?
I hope this give you some direction.
If there is something I seem to have missed, about your experience, or if you would like to discuss this in more detail, I would encourage you to connect with an expert on the platform for a session.
Take care and warm regards,