I think i was in the same condition few years back, i use to follow her but every time i meet her she denies to talk to me. I felt rejected. But i started killing the memories keep moving in my career. I have not achieved much but i am out of that horrible condition. It is real point to note that in this world there is no one to support you. You have to be your own support. Whenever you stuck at any point ask your inner self to tell you what to do next.
One thing to note is you might use to give advice to other people either it be a family member or a friend, i would suggest you to ask yourself for advice.