Been a month since I started a new job. My boyfriend is a musician for 1.5 years, a very good one. But he quit his day job few months ago and music isn't helping him pay bills. So we are looking for a new job, new gigs, more chances in cinema. His problems are intense. He has had childhood trauma. I've just gotten into "adult" life of making a home of my own and getting to work. My family recently knew of my relationship and chaos ensued. They do talk to me but they are cold and distant. I'm so stressed and unable to regularly vent it out that I get emotional outbursts these days. I lash out on somebody and everything is blur when it happens. They say I was trembling.