Thank you for writing on the platform. It takes courage and strength to talk about it.
It seems like you are an introvert and someone who is shy by nature. And this nature of yours would have been the reason that you were scared of interacting with girls when you were in college. As you mentioned that you have taken treatment for mild depression and have overcome that now, I must say i am proud of that.
As i understand, the reason for your depression was what you started next- your ill treatment by a colleague. it seems that you have been deeply hurt by such treatment by your colleague and that has bothered you a lot. I must ask you here- did you try to confront the person and ask why such an action? or even inform the HR about your ill treatment? You mention of the same thing repeating in the new company and the same happening there. Did you try to find out why they are doing so and what is making them spread such rumors about you? You say you would like ti get married and have normal sexual desires- can you please explain what you mean by that?
It also seems like you have quite a different opinion and idea of "gay"- they too have sexual desires and are normal like any other person. They just have a different sexual orientation.
I do understand that it must be difficult for you to receive such treatment and it is also very unfair. I would suggest that you do take it up with your HR and try to put an end to it. You could also come on the platform for chats and audio sessions and discuss your concern further with our experts who have expertise in the areas of your concern.
Shraddha Durg (Expert).