I'm a 22 years old, 5'1(155 cm), male with a physique on the thinner end of the spectrum. I have never been in a relationship before. Not for the lack of trying though. It is as if everytime I try asking someone out their response is somewhere along the lines of:
"You'll find someone better"
"I'm not looking to date someone right now"
"I'm looking for someone..... different"
I get that, everyone has their own expectations, but it's just that I don't happen to meet those. I can't help but think that maybe I won't find anyone. Because, as I mentioned above, I happen to be the exact opposite of "tall, dark & handsome". It also doesn't mean that I'm perfect otherwise, I am average across all boards with no major accomplishments. Be it personality or career.
It's just that, I wish I was good enough. I wish someone liked me; for a change. Maybe I just don't happen to have any redeemable traits. Everytime I look at someone else, be it male or female I can only think "Wow, he/she is good. What am I compared to him/her?".
I am not looking for sympathy or contradiction. It's just, I was hoping to find a way out of this cycle. I don't really want to be alone but, I guess if there's a way to be okay with then I might I have to take that path. I wish someone was here, maybe then, I wouldn't be in a constant state of fear and panic.