Thank you for Your Suggestion Zinnia, The next day I wrote this post, my mind was completely upset and didn't want to go to office as well. I told at home that i'll go to office and went to a park near a big lake, where people come and go. half day went past just roaming around the park. it was around 3PM one old guy called me to sit next to him and started discussing. Since I never shared all my problems with any one I started sharing with him. He just told that not to take any hasty decision and just keep moving, god will definitely show the way just in time for all the problems. He also shared few of his experiences from his life. At that time I have only 250 rupees left. Some how I got little motivated and went home. Bought milk packets for my kids for 50 rupees and the remaining two hundred left for next day. On the other hand just understanding the value of money which I dint before while investing without any rule and lost almost 13 lakhs.
the next day luckily one of my old friend contacted me and i hesitatingly asked 30k, and he has given. I have had to pay 22500 to loans and now I have 7500 left, which will keep me for one more week as i should pay my another loan and rent which come to around 30 K or more on 7th of every month.
I started trying outside Jobs. but i don't think i can ask any money from current job as it was agreed before, if no project no money.
Lets see what god has for me.